Drop gently

Echoing my latest traumas,
Suitably equips the day for tears.
Staring at mosaic traffic lights
In wobbly formation over my windscreen.
Wiped away in one fell swoop, still red
I wait for the changing light. Wiper sweeps again.
If only it were that easy. Swipe away!
Why can't my tears wipe like that?
Disappear with a wiper blade.
Instead, recurring on daily basis;
Wiped but not forgotten.
Drop gently,soundless, no bereft sob.
Quiet, tears rolling - in peaceful reverie.
Tears to echo the day, constant drips of rain.
I set off again, still weeping silently.
Clouds tease apart with surgical precision.
Revealing some hope of blue; some hope
But none for me: my rainbow does not appear.

You Promised . . . . I Promised

You promised to love me for ever.
You promised your vows to me.
I promised to love you for ever.
I promised my vows to you.
I respected you
You respected nothing
I gave you me my body, my love, my honesty 
You gave me distress, upset, heartache, abuse.
I made you unaccountably irritated, annoyed, impatient.
You made me fearful, restrained, introverted, desperate.
I drowned in pity
You drowned in beer.
You took away my self esteem, passion, decisions, self image
I took away our son.
I tried so hard!
You tried to destroy me
I forced a smile
You forced me to do things I did not want
I changed for self preservation
You changed me indelibly
You broke my spirit, possessions, our son's toys  
I broke my heart
You dreamt of god knows what
I dreamt I was killing you, I might be happy one day
I felt lost, unloved, pathetic 
You felt empowered
I reported you to the G.P. but only once
You reported me as mentally unstable to the police
You threw vile things at me
I threw away my life for you
You left me bereft
I LEFT YOU!





















  

One Woman

One woman . . . one previous 'owner';

No sense of humour, completely erased.

Self esteem successfully eradicated;

No sense of well-being; stamped out and on.

Mental health teeters on the brink.

Loveless demands made; to satisfy

Idiocy being the norm now . . .

According to you!

One woman, loved unconditionally.

Treated as equal, respected and cherished.

Contentment together; appreciating each other.

No longer an 'object'.

Scrambled from the pit;

Pulled to freedom.

I'm loved as a woman . . . no demands made:

Pure bliss and enjoyment.

One person changed everything

Nurtured this woman's recovery

And made me whole.